Uncategorized, Writer's Process

To Publish a Post or not to Publish a Post…why is it so damn hard?

“A writer is someone for whom writing is more difficult than it is for other people”

I have written two drafts in the past few months each on different subjects and have been unable to click the “Publish” button in the top right hand corner of this page.

I am not completely sure as to why. Perhaps in all the writing I have done I haven’t actually written very much at all or, in what I have written, I have not said what I truly wanted to say.

When I come up against these walls I frequently remember the quote by Thomas Mann at the head of this article. It must be the constant self examination and criticism that plagues writers and who, if left to their on devices, would write but never publish. I can’t remember who said it, I think it may have been Neil Gaiman who has a very direct approach to writing, who said, “Just write it down!” is there anything more succinct than that? Take note Georgey R. R. Martin.

So these two blog posts, I think one was on blood, or wine or some such plot device and the other was introspective, I’ll review them and post them shortly for the sake of my own sanity. I feel like they are hovering over my head very much akin to the seagull that attacked my sandwich the other day. In the meantime I’ll mention my latest project.

A teenage fantasy novel. Four dire words. I do not write for children. I have only trie in this instance because adults do not seem to read. Young fiction is a huge market and a tried and tested segue into popular readership. Am I potentially selling out? Yes, I think I am. Am I prostituting myself to children? Not question one should ask or perhaps answer…ever.

My gothic worlds of death and folklore has been transmuted into a land of legend and fairy tale. Imagine Arthurian knights and monsters and such, Tolkienesque grandeur but without the tedium. There are multiple stories set in the same universe which can be read in order or individually. It portrays a world which is a precursor to my on going universe in my more adult novels, a Genesis story.

I am trying to write it in a language format which mimics that of the Arthur stories by Thomas Malory whilst also introducing a more approachable informality, coupled with my, inappropriate, dark humour. this latter part has been the greatest challenge, holding back on some of the x-rated content that pops into my head as I write. Maybe I’ll release an R rated version at a later date. I think this is pandering to the young audience consciousness.  I believe teenagers are able to take a lot more than we give them credit for, but of course the counter argument is, should they be exposed to it?

So I shall stick to content in similarity to the material I was reading when I was fourteen, the Marquis de Sade and George Bataille, or not. I am publishing on Wattpad which has stringent rules on mature content. So I shall circumlocute them and try to address issues that teenagers want to read about, sex, violence, racism, mortality etc.

Wattpad is a great website for young writers and for those writing for that audience and if I can make it there then most of my life’s work is complete. Once that is done the next step will be convincing the world I can write more than fluffy bunny stories.

One last note, I have noticed that most people who visit this site do so via my Instagram and Twitter accounts so I shall be spending more time posting there to garner a wider following.

If you are interested my new story is LORE. and can be found at


Do have a look and let me know what you think. I am now on holiday for a week, hiking in the peak district.




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